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curiouscloud) wrote2024-08-13 09:41 am
curiouscloud) wrote2024-08-13 09:41 am
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great days
I took some free days from work and decided to spend them last minute with my partner. I feel very guilty for not being able to perform as good as usual. I like to feel proud of my work and when I know I’m not doing my best it starts to lose its meaning. I could give my position to someone else that could help better.
But I can’t help enjoying my time with the love of my life. Everything else seems to matter less when I’m around him. He takes care of everything. And I want to be the best person I can because of him. But also I don’t want to give him any more burdens. He already has so many responsibilities. I don’t want to be another one. He does trust me to be independent and help him but sometimes I wish he would let me do more. He doesn’t need to take everything upon himself. We could divide things more equally.
But regardless the days have been amazing. I know there’s even more time planned later for us but I can’t help wishing it wouldn’t end. I hate going back to my regular life most times. It feels whimsical when I’m with him. Like I’m in a fairytale. Just existing with him with not a care in the world. But then the reason why I love it so much when it happens it because it’s not and everyday thing.
They say distance makes the heat grow fonder and it feels that way. I can’t wait until we are able to spend every day together and see each other waking up and going to sleep.
I also want us to enjoy this time so we don’t have any regrets later. I want to live everything I have to live at this moment. I don’t want to rush things. But I’m lucky enough to have found my safe space in him and it does feel wonderful. I love playing house with him.
But I can’t help enjoying my time with the love of my life. Everything else seems to matter less when I’m around him. He takes care of everything. And I want to be the best person I can because of him. But also I don’t want to give him any more burdens. He already has so many responsibilities. I don’t want to be another one. He does trust me to be independent and help him but sometimes I wish he would let me do more. He doesn’t need to take everything upon himself. We could divide things more equally.
But regardless the days have been amazing. I know there’s even more time planned later for us but I can’t help wishing it wouldn’t end. I hate going back to my regular life most times. It feels whimsical when I’m with him. Like I’m in a fairytale. Just existing with him with not a care in the world. But then the reason why I love it so much when it happens it because it’s not and everyday thing.
They say distance makes the heat grow fonder and it feels that way. I can’t wait until we are able to spend every day together and see each other waking up and going to sleep.
I also want us to enjoy this time so we don’t have any regrets later. I want to live everything I have to live at this moment. I don’t want to rush things. But I’m lucky enough to have found my safe space in him and it does feel wonderful. I love playing house with him.