curiouscloud

I don’t consider myself a transitional woman, but I’ve grown to appreciate it. I was never raised as less because of my gender, I was never go own any indication that there was a difference. I was meant to study and work and do anything I felt like doing just like the rest. So it did took me by surprised when I realized the little debate society still has. The fact that some genders have less rights in other countries it’s still wild to me. My brain has a hard time making sense of it.

I was also not taught to be submissive. We are loud, we are opinionated and we like to be heard. I’m definitely a yapper, I could talk your ear off as evidence by my journal. During my childhood I was not allowed to date because I couldn’t get distracted. Of course, suddenly I was expected to have a partner. But that independence stuck with me.

I am very grateful that I was given the opportunity to be a kid without having to worry about relationships. I was a witness to the many toxic relationships my friends had during that time. I’m glad I don’t have that much romantic trauma. I was able to focus on things that now serve me in my life and contribute to my future in a positive way.

And I was able to find someone that gives me the love I deserve. He’s truly everything I could’ve ever wished for. He treats me like a princess, loves me unconditionally, is patient. I constantly find myself staring at him and wondering how I’m so lucky to have him. He’s the best most sweetest man ever.

I find myself getting ready while I wait for him to arrive from work. I want him to find me pretty. I want to feed him and make sure he can relax after his long day. I want to make him as happy as he makes me and I know I can’t compare because he has saved me. I can’t ever be to him what he is to me. But I can try to at least make him happy and it makes me happy when I do in return. I don’t think there’s something better about love than that. The fact that seeing someone you love be okay makes you feel okay.

He never expects anything from me. He accepts me just as I am. Yeah, there’s nothing more I could ask from him and I know I’m blessed to be chosen by him. Being his life partner feels like an amazing dream and although I used to have different goals I don’t think I would be disappointed. I know sharing my life with him won’t become a burden. I can’t say I’ve been decades with him but the few years we’ve had had been wonderful. I know things won’t be perfect but they every challenge we’ve faced I’ve been grateful for. It has made us stronger. And although I felt I needed a century to make sure someone was the one for me, he has broken down that misconception.

I wish I never lose him and that he’s always safe.