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Aug. 30th, 2024 08:28 pmBack to the real world I guess.
Vacation was great. I wanted to document it in writing but I didn't really have that much time for that. I wish it hadn't ended. Having a bit of trouble getting back to normal. Weather doesn't really help, it's getting chilly outside and the cold just makes me want to lay in bed. Procrastination has been my enemy since forever.
Took a break from caffeine for a few days, needed the reset. I wasn't feeling the celsius. Dreading a bit going back to work but I know it's actually needed.
K had a work event today and it's hanging out with his collegues. It bothers me sometimes when he hangs out with them, I'm not that close with my colleagues. But I also can't be a hypocrite because it's not like I don't actually have a relationship with them. It's rare the times I do but sometimes I accept the invites.
Habibi is feeling hurt by my lack of attention lately. K doesn't really like how close we are and I have to respect that. I wouldn't like him to have that type of relationship with another one. It's not only because of the history we have, but I am actually a bit of a jealous person. I want all his attention to myself. And he's so understanding.
But I miss habibi. It's more K's habibi than mine but I've grown to care for him so much. I don't consider anyone as highly as him. Not even my longest friendships. We have gone through so much.
I have to return some calls. SeaSun has been calling me for a while. Honestly I've given her space because she recently started dating someone seriously after Joker and he seems very nice. I know she centers her attention on her partners, especially if they are starting out. I want her to enjoy that and give herself time to explore everything she's been wanting. Joker was horrible and it took me a while to realize that, I'm still grasping just how bad he was for her. So I can't imagine how hard it must have been for her.
It's been a few months and all I've heard have been good things. I can only hope things are really okay but I do need to check up on her. Plus I've been needing a girls date.
On that note, don't know about the lives of the foursome. They've all been busy with their lives and partners. Literally the last thing I've heard about all of them is their marriage and moving in with their spouses to their new house.
K went with me to a wedding, the other one we didn't get an invite to. Actually no one did, it was very rushed and we found out after. There were talks about an outing but it's been left in the air so who knows.
Vacation was great. I wanted to document it in writing but I didn't really have that much time for that. I wish it hadn't ended. Having a bit of trouble getting back to normal. Weather doesn't really help, it's getting chilly outside and the cold just makes me want to lay in bed. Procrastination has been my enemy since forever.
Took a break from caffeine for a few days, needed the reset. I wasn't feeling the celsius. Dreading a bit going back to work but I know it's actually needed.
K had a work event today and it's hanging out with his collegues. It bothers me sometimes when he hangs out with them, I'm not that close with my colleagues. But I also can't be a hypocrite because it's not like I don't actually have a relationship with them. It's rare the times I do but sometimes I accept the invites.
Habibi is feeling hurt by my lack of attention lately. K doesn't really like how close we are and I have to respect that. I wouldn't like him to have that type of relationship with another one. It's not only because of the history we have, but I am actually a bit of a jealous person. I want all his attention to myself. And he's so understanding.
But I miss habibi. It's more K's habibi than mine but I've grown to care for him so much. I don't consider anyone as highly as him. Not even my longest friendships. We have gone through so much.
I have to return some calls. SeaSun has been calling me for a while. Honestly I've given her space because she recently started dating someone seriously after Joker and he seems very nice. I know she centers her attention on her partners, especially if they are starting out. I want her to enjoy that and give herself time to explore everything she's been wanting. Joker was horrible and it took me a while to realize that, I'm still grasping just how bad he was for her. So I can't imagine how hard it must have been for her.
It's been a few months and all I've heard have been good things. I can only hope things are really okay but I do need to check up on her. Plus I've been needing a girls date.
On that note, don't know about the lives of the foursome. They've all been busy with their lives and partners. Literally the last thing I've heard about all of them is their marriage and moving in with their spouses to their new house.
K went with me to a wedding, the other one we didn't get an invite to. Actually no one did, it was very rushed and we found out after. There were talks about an outing but it's been left in the air so who knows.
