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curiouscloud) wrote2024-10-14 07:25 pm
curiouscloud) wrote2024-10-14 07:25 pm
tired of work
I should be more consistent with journaling. My life is important. My hobbies are important. I got frustrated at K today. I got a call last week from a new job position I applied for but I was sleeping at the time. I tried to return it but I was unable to get into contact with them. I've been trying the whole weekend to set that up before I have to return to work for the week. Work is kicking my ass. I'm tired all the time. I have been sleeping horribly. It's stressing me out.
It's not worth it. But I won't quit until I have another secure position lined up. But it's just a toxic cycle that keeps repeating and I tried explaining that to K through the phone after work today. He said that was necessary, something that I had to do. And I got very annoyed and just ended the call. I told him I was not in the mood for his jokes today. He called me two times before I finally relened and answered.
I love that he can joke about everything and his sense of humor always brings a smile to my face. His laugh makes me very happy. But he knows I'm very sensitive about this topic and I don't want to dissapoint him but I'm ready to leave this job.
It's not worth it. But I won't quit until I have another secure position lined up. But it's just a toxic cycle that keeps repeating and I tried explaining that to K through the phone after work today. He said that was necessary, something that I had to do. And I got very annoyed and just ended the call. I told him I was not in the mood for his jokes today. He called me two times before I finally relened and answered.
I love that he can joke about everything and his sense of humor always brings a smile to my face. His laugh makes me very happy. But he knows I'm very sensitive about this topic and I don't want to dissapoint him but I'm ready to leave this job.